Artist's Way

My Love Book: ♥ My birthday gift to myself ♥

My Love Book

Sun July 11th or as I would like to say Lucky 7-11 is my birthday. It’s also the new moon and a solar eclipse on that very same day.  One spiritual mother told me that I needed to focus  on love on my birthday to set my intentions. Another said to sit with what brings you joy on the inside, and express this joy in your outer world.. sharing it with others.

My birthday wish is to celebrate love for the entire month of July. Everywhere I go people are wishing me Happy Valentine’s month or ♥Happy Love Month ♥ I wanted something I could engage people with cause I value relationships. So I decided to play DJ Buffy and I began  requesting song requests from people.  I would try to go out and find a video of their song and I would write a dedication to them. I love the interaction that I have been receiving from people as I contemplate and explore love in all of it’s beautiful dimensions.  Self love, romantic love, true love, love of the Creator, etc.

I am a part of a sacred circle of women. In this source of  women’s spirituality I find the security that I have always craved. Within this sacred space I find the acceptance I have always yearned for.  The divine feminine is honored and cherished. The energy that is at the heart of this special circle is most profound,  radiates, and surrounds all those that are there.  I had this desire for women’s spirituality for the longest time. I was on a quest to find where my female spirit could heal and play. I searched various places  within my community where I would feel welcomed as a woman. I talked to random women on the street, on the bus, or anywhere I would encounter them.  I sought out spiritual centers and churches seeking for the right group of women to immerse myself in. A place where my creativity could flourish. A place where I could laugh. Where I could pray. Where my spirit could dance.  After tonight, I think I found confirmation that I found that place… my Moon Circle.

Tonight, I explored my creative side by creating an artbook titled “My Love Book” during the Moon Circle tonight. When I received my name Wabun anung which means Morning Star in a native naming ceremony at 17 years old I instantly envisioned that my path was love. The gifts of life, hope, and light are all given in the act of love as part of the glory of the dawn. My essence is love…my path is to love.  I need to claim my birthright. And being part of this awesome connection with the female heart I am encouraged to focus on that power within me of love and around me.

So, I chose to center my focus on my book with love. This is the first time I ever created a multimedia book. I loved the choices of printed, glitter, marbled, and colored paper. There were a ton of stamps to choose from. Magazines to explore for images. A bowl full of vintage pictures.  Lots of various kinds of ribbons. My inner child jumped for joy. I love having the opportunity of creating. I played with my book as I assembled the images that I wanted to put together. It was absolutely exhilarating having that time to explore with other women.

The following are pages from”My Love Book.” Enjoy.

There is only one happiness in life to love and be loved.

True Love: The trinity between Creator, myself, and the man Creator has picked for me as my true love partner. ♥ July 8, 2010. No. 526715.

Love, Buffy

Each night the moon kisses secretly the lover who counts the stars. ~ Rumi

Happiness is only possible with true love.

Let your teacher be love itself.

Love,

Buffy

Artist's Way

The Artist’s Way is a Path to Love.

Why do I walk the Artist’s Way? The fundamental and most simplistic answer for me is that it’s a path of love. It’s the relationship calling upon my Creator the Ultimate Artist to help me create. I found my sanity and self by doing the Artist’s Way. I tapped into my creative dreams and hopes. I begun to branch out and connect with others traveling the Artist’s Way. Along this journey I strengthened my relationship with other creative souls and encountered new creators along the way.

It’s the love you find reaching out to the Great Creator who understands and accepts you as the artist that you are. You know those synchronicities? That’s Creator’s love guiding you and loving you some more. That’s the Universe that pays attention and actually listens to you. I strongly believe it was the Creator that lead me to the Artist’s Way by Julia Cameron in the first place when I was sitting there sipping herbal tea at the Highwind Books in Milwaukee. That was no ordinary synchronicity seeing the Artist’s Way book sitting next to me. Waiting for me to open up to my destiny.

I started the Artist’s Way journey alone seeking love. I was suffering from mental illness symptoms. I had no one to really talk about my unfolding creative discoveries. I quietly read the chapters and completed my morning pages, artist’s dates, and tasks. To me self love is doing the morning pages and the artist’s dates. It’s the time spent nurturing yourself. I learned to rest on the page and fill the well. I began to do beadwork again. I brought out my heddle loom and began to bead fire colored stars along a blue background. A switch was turned back on in me as I woke up. I need to learn to love myself again as the bodaciously beautiful and creative soul that I truly am.

Once woken up my hopes and dreams began to emerge. Thanks to the Artist’s Way and the confidence that was emerging I unearthed my creative dreams of being artist. I dared to live my dreams feeling I had nothing else to live for once I was diagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. I enrolled myself in Drawing 101 at UW-Milwaukee. I hadn’t taken any drawing classes in middle school or high school so I was scared about the idea of pursing art on the college level. Would I be able to cut it artistically at the college level with no real background in drawing and painting? This is what I dared to uncover for myself. So I worked really hard in that drawing class trying to prove myself and take a chance on my artistic dream. I was told that I was drawing to small and to draw bigger. I did an extra credit sketch book which I lovingly selected pictures to draw telling a story of things I valued in my life. I was given an A in the class by the most gentle and supportive instructor I ever had. In honor of the confidence he built up in me that I am an artist I gave him the beaded head band of fire colored stars and blue background I made during my very first Artist’s Way journey. He later turned around and wrote me a glowing reference letter for a Native American art scholarship I applied for and gratefully won. With that scholarship I enrolled fulltime in the fine arts program specializing in drawing and painting. The Artist’s Way unlocked my dormant dream of being an artist and the love of that dream I had carried in my heart since childhood.

The foundation of support being able to get support first through Julia’s words, but also when I began to reach out to others on the Artist’s Way path finding fellow travelers was an ultimate source of love. I reached out to an online Artist’s Way support group to gain support and that encouraged me to create my own online Artist’s Way support group online 9 years ago and still going and growing now. I then connected with other members of the Artist’s Way journey in a Meetup Artist’s Way group in Milwaukee. Then I grew to facilitating 4 Artist’s Way Circles. I will be facilitating a fifth Artist’s Way Circle starting at Oct. 28, 2009. There have been so many times I learned so much about myself from these circles. So many insights. My Artist’s Way Circles led me closer to my artistic sister and my soul sister who are both in my circles. I found a current member of the Artist’s Way Circle because I was searching for Artist’s Way videos and uncovered his Artist’s Way video which led me to my favorite artist. someone who listened to my childhood, my creative creations, read my “Two Step” first draft in all it’s rawness. Meeting him was like soul recognition. Could it be possible for two artists to be the muse for each other? Is it possible that each spurs the creative juices of the other? I think it’s possible. I think in the Artist’s Way Circle we are the artists and muses for each other. That support that each creative soul yearns for. I have had so many people given me support and love as I shared parts of my creativity with them.

My vision was born from my experience of the Artist’s Way. I am Buffy a lover and a creator. I play with life. I am a child of the Creator. Creator is funny. I practice the healing arts. I am a writer, artist, singer, dancer, and more. I am a creator of true love.

My prayer for The Artist’s Way Circle is that Creator lead those who need to be here the most. That they find the love and support they need from our sacred space. That members are inspired by each other, grow, and prosper. So in time they can inspire others in their life through the act of living a creative life. May your Artist’s Way path be filled with love.